Today is day number 4 of the challenge: *stranger*
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
February photo a day #'s 2 and 3..
Yesterday super busy and didnt get a chance to post my pic so im posting with todays.. day two was *words* and today is *hands*.... What do you think?
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Mercy???
One of my favorite games as a little girl was Mercy.. I had a sneak attack move I always did that ensured that I would get my opponent to yell "Mercy" within 5 seconds. Well lately I have been feeling like my life is a game of mercy and days like today I want to just scream it.
My day started off so positive, so full of joy and optimism. I got some sufficient rest, I had a great visit with my doctor and he dropped some wisdom on me.. I had a nice lunch with a friend and a good workout with my sis Porsche. Spent a bunch of quality time with my kids too, cooked them one of their favorite dishes, curry chicken and vegetables. Went to the gym and ran faster than I ever have.... Sounds like a productive day, right?
Wrong. Someone I care about and love very deeply deceived me and it wasn't the first time. Upon learning about the deception I felt as though I had been kicked in my chest. I literally lost my breath and as I felt the tears pool in my eyes I began thinking to myself, WHY? why do I allow things like this to go on? Why do I forgive and allow things to be repeated? OMG I must fix this problem like yesterday because I cannot take any more of this from anyone. My trust of people has diminished to almost nothing and that is not my nature so I feel unnatural right now. I want to run away for a long time but all that will do is leave me to face it upon my return so I am just going to take a deep breath and face this shit head on right now.
I have learned in my life that it does go on so I am certain that I will be ok. I am not going to say mercy no matter how life twists me up and turns me around because I am stronger than that. Here goes nothing.....
My day started off so positive, so full of joy and optimism. I got some sufficient rest, I had a great visit with my doctor and he dropped some wisdom on me.. I had a nice lunch with a friend and a good workout with my sis Porsche. Spent a bunch of quality time with my kids too, cooked them one of their favorite dishes, curry chicken and vegetables. Went to the gym and ran faster than I ever have.... Sounds like a productive day, right?
Wrong. Someone I care about and love very deeply deceived me and it wasn't the first time. Upon learning about the deception I felt as though I had been kicked in my chest. I literally lost my breath and as I felt the tears pool in my eyes I began thinking to myself, WHY? why do I allow things like this to go on? Why do I forgive and allow things to be repeated? OMG I must fix this problem like yesterday because I cannot take any more of this from anyone. My trust of people has diminished to almost nothing and that is not my nature so I feel unnatural right now. I want to run away for a long time but all that will do is leave me to face it upon my return so I am just going to take a deep breath and face this shit head on right now.
I have learned in my life that it does go on so I am certain that I will be ok. I am not going to say mercy no matter how life twists me up and turns me around because I am stronger than that. Here goes nothing.....
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
already???
Sooooo I did not do my wrap up of last week.... thinking to myself already, Lala??
YES, I had such a crazy week, I already broke my commitment to blog at least a weekly wrap up BUT here I am :)
So last week I experienced a major I've had it moment. Had it with work, had it with my personal disorganization, my lack of sleep, my messy condo... I decided that after 7 years of going nonstop I must stop, regroup, and pull myself out of this major funk I have been in. For the last year I have been in an on again off again ike and tina typa relationship... with myself. I have experienced some seriously depressing days and despite hearing from other women around my age or older that the cleansing/purging process I am undergoing is rather normal, the shit didn't feel normal at all. I allowed myself to fall victim to many people and many circumstances and anyone who knows me knows I am no one's victim.
Well after a year of crying and sulking and beating myself up for what I am not, I decided to shut the pity party down and begin rebuilding myself inside and out. This past week was my beginning step towards this and I plan on blogging quite a bit so git ready! (yeah, I said git lol) Writing, working out, eating appropriately, SLEEPING ENOUGH.. all part of MY master plan... and I can't wait...
Parting thought:
Being healthy is not just about exercise and eating right. Mental health and spiritual health are just as important so focus on making sound decisions this week and every day that you wake up and are blessed with breath thank God because that can be taken away at any moment.
-Lala aka Mimi's Girl
YES, I had such a crazy week, I already broke my commitment to blog at least a weekly wrap up BUT here I am :)
So last week I experienced a major I've had it moment. Had it with work, had it with my personal disorganization, my lack of sleep, my messy condo... I decided that after 7 years of going nonstop I must stop, regroup, and pull myself out of this major funk I have been in. For the last year I have been in an on again off again ike and tina typa relationship... with myself. I have experienced some seriously depressing days and despite hearing from other women around my age or older that the cleansing/purging process I am undergoing is rather normal, the shit didn't feel normal at all. I allowed myself to fall victim to many people and many circumstances and anyone who knows me knows I am no one's victim.
Well after a year of crying and sulking and beating myself up for what I am not, I decided to shut the pity party down and begin rebuilding myself inside and out. This past week was my beginning step towards this and I plan on blogging quite a bit so git ready! (yeah, I said git lol) Writing, working out, eating appropriately, SLEEPING ENOUGH.. all part of MY master plan... and I can't wait...
Parting thought:
Being healthy is not just about exercise and eating right. Mental health and spiritual health are just as important so focus on making sound decisions this week and every day that you wake up and are blessed with breath thank God because that can be taken away at any moment.
-Lala aka Mimi's Girl
Monday, January 16, 2012
Superwoman?
I was recently asked "if you could possess one super power what would it be?"... Excellent question. My initial answer was that I would have the power to persuade people to do whatever I want them to. Of course that could be used for good or for evil and while the idea of possessing such a power is fun to imagine, reality is that no one has that type of power. It did get my gears turning tho and I began to think about what super power I can possess and I realized that I am already a super woman.I have the power to tell if my babies have a fever with a quick connect of my palm to their forehead. I have the power to make tummy aches feel better and tears turn to smiles and fear turn to bravery...
I have the power to turn a few ingredients into a feast. I have the power to hear things left unsaid just by listening a little longer and a little harder. I can make a stranger feel like I am an old friend in one conversation. I can paint pictures with words, make dreams seem like reality and the impossible a possibility. Woooow, I AM POWERFUL!
There are so many things that go into being a woman, so many responsibilities and duties and requirements but fulfilling them all give us power and I am learning to recognize, appreciate and enjoy the blessings that go along with having such power...
Every day I am becoming stronger and smarter and wiser and as Alicia Keys said even when I'm a mess... I still put on that vest with that "S" on my chest...why? Because I have to.. I want to.. I love to. Because I am a super woman.
-Lala AKA Mimi's girl
Sunday, January 15, 2012
What happened? 01/09/2012 thru 01/15/2012
Quick wrap up of the past week...
I set a lot of goals for myself this past week...They were pretty realistic so I was able to meet most of them. I worked out a bunch, spent great quality time with my babies and even got some reading and stuff done. Saw the movie Contraband and got some stuff done at work that I had been putting off.
This week coming up will be very busy and demanding but I am ready for it! wish you all a great week.
PARTING THOUGHT:
Respect time. Both your own and when someone else gives you theirs. Time is one of the most valuable things we have. While we don't control time itself, we do control how we use ours. Time allows wounds to heal. It allows us to grow, it allows dreams to come true and it allows us to love and appreciate and value one another.
Til next time, be safe!
-Lala, aka Mimi's girl
I set a lot of goals for myself this past week...They were pretty realistic so I was able to meet most of them. I worked out a bunch, spent great quality time with my babies and even got some reading and stuff done. Saw the movie Contraband and got some stuff done at work that I had been putting off.
This week coming up will be very busy and demanding but I am ready for it! wish you all a great week.
PARTING THOUGHT:
Respect time. Both your own and when someone else gives you theirs. Time is one of the most valuable things we have. While we don't control time itself, we do control how we use ours. Time allows wounds to heal. It allows us to grow, it allows dreams to come true and it allows us to love and appreciate and value one another.
Til next time, be safe!
-Lala, aka Mimi's girl
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