Mercy???

One of my favorite games as a little girl was Mercy.. I had a sneak attack move I always did that ensured that I would get my opponent to yell "Mercy" within 5 seconds. Well lately I have been feeling like my life is a game of mercy and days like today I want to just scream it.

My day started off so positive, so full of joy and optimism. I got some sufficient rest, I had a great visit with my doctor and he dropped some wisdom on me.. I had a nice lunch with a friend and a good workout with my sis Porsche. Spent a bunch of quality time with my kids too, cooked them one of their favorite dishes, curry chicken and vegetables. Went to the gym and ran faster than I ever have.... Sounds like a productive day, right?

Wrong. Someone I care about and love very deeply deceived me and it wasn't the first time. Upon learning about the deception I felt as though I had been kicked in my chest. I literally lost my breath and as I felt the tears pool in my eyes I began thinking to myself, WHY? why do I allow things like this to go on? Why do I forgive and allow things to be repeated? OMG I must fix this problem like yesterday because I cannot take any more of this from anyone. My trust of people has diminished to almost nothing and that is not my nature so I feel unnatural right now. I want to run away for a long time but all that will do is leave me to face it upon my return so I am just going to take a deep breath and face this shit head on right now.

I have learned in my life that it does go on so I am certain that I will be ok. I am not going to say mercy no matter how life twists me up and turns me around because I am stronger than that. Here goes nothing.....